1 00:00:07,716 --> 00:00:08,091 . 2 00:00:08,133 --> 00:00:08,758 [jazzy percussive music] 3 00:00:09,718 --> 00:00:12,012 - [sighs] 4 00:00:12,053 --> 00:00:13,471 * * 5 00:00:13,513 --> 00:00:15,098 Damn. 6 00:00:15,140 --> 00:00:16,891 * * 7 00:00:16,933 --> 00:00:18,852 - Damn right. 8 00:00:18,893 --> 00:00:22,689 * * 9 00:00:22,731 --> 00:00:24,232 Mm. 10 00:00:33,074 --> 00:00:35,035 - The sink's clogged again! 11 00:00:35,076 --> 00:00:36,995 - Plumber is coming tomorrow! 12 00:00:37,037 --> 00:00:38,371 - [groans] 13 00:00:38,413 --> 00:00:40,123 It's like a crime scene in here. 14 00:00:40,165 --> 00:00:41,291 [siren wailing] 15 00:00:41,332 --> 00:00:43,418 - [grumbling] 16 00:00:47,339 --> 00:00:49,966 - Written word not enough, huh? 17 00:00:50,008 --> 00:00:52,469 You want the full audio experience? 18 00:00:52,510 --> 00:00:54,971 - I need an actual human being, 19 00:00:55,013 --> 00:00:57,599 or someone is getting strangled with a plunger. 20 00:00:58,975 --> 00:01:00,185 - We still being sexy? 21 00:01:00,226 --> 00:01:02,562 - Look, I've only got a few weeks left. 22 00:01:02,604 --> 00:01:05,148 It's time to make this an in-person thing. 23 00:01:05,190 --> 00:01:06,733 - So let's do it. 24 00:01:06,775 --> 00:01:08,068 Tonight. 25 00:01:08,109 --> 00:01:09,944 - For real, for real? 26 00:01:09,986 --> 00:01:11,905 What about your dad? 27 00:01:11,946 --> 00:01:13,073 - Oh, no, no, no, no. 28 00:01:13,114 --> 00:01:15,116 He's--he's doing great. 29 00:01:15,158 --> 00:01:16,951 He's on his meds. Model roommate. 30 00:01:16,993 --> 00:01:19,662 So it's time for him to see a sock on the door knob 31 00:01:19,704 --> 00:01:20,830 and get gone. 32 00:01:20,872 --> 00:01:22,207 For real. 33 00:01:22,248 --> 00:01:26,211 * * 34 00:01:26,252 --> 00:01:29,130 - Oh, I know that smile. 35 00:01:29,172 --> 00:01:30,757 That's the smile of a man making plans 36 00:01:30,799 --> 00:01:33,802 for the finest fishing exposition 37 00:01:33,843 --> 00:01:35,345 in the tristate area. 38 00:01:35,387 --> 00:01:36,888 - That's a bunch of old timers 39 00:01:36,930 --> 00:01:39,057 swapping stories in the back of a bait shop? 40 00:01:39,099 --> 00:01:40,350 - Sure. 41 00:01:40,392 --> 00:01:42,102 If you wanna say the Javits Convention Center 42 00:01:42,143 --> 00:01:43,937 is a bait shop. 43 00:01:43,978 --> 00:01:45,814 - Oh, looks great, Dad. 44 00:01:45,855 --> 00:01:47,107 Yeah, tell me about it. 45 00:01:47,148 --> 00:01:50,318 - I will not, 'cause you're coming. 46 00:01:50,360 --> 00:01:52,195 - Sounds great, Dad. 47 00:01:52,237 --> 00:01:53,279 - Good. 48 00:01:53,321 --> 00:01:55,490 We'll go after your work. 49 00:01:55,532 --> 00:01:57,450 - Wait, the expo's tonight? 50 00:01:57,492 --> 00:01:58,785 - Is that a problem? 51 00:01:58,827 --> 00:02:05,750 * * 52 00:02:08,420 --> 00:02:11,339 [upbeat piano music] 53 00:02:11,381 --> 00:02:14,592 * * 54 00:02:14,634 --> 00:02:17,387 - Mm. 55 00:02:17,429 --> 00:02:20,140 What did you do that for? 56 00:02:20,181 --> 00:02:21,850 - Just making sure you're real. 57 00:02:21,891 --> 00:02:23,768 - [chuckles] 58 00:02:23,810 --> 00:02:28,023 Only way to know for sure is to give me a scalp massage. 59 00:02:28,064 --> 00:02:30,316 - Dad's back! - Hi, everybody. 60 00:02:30,358 --> 00:02:32,318 [laughter] 61 00:02:32,360 --> 00:02:34,863 Hi, guys. You're darn right, Dad's back. 62 00:02:34,904 --> 00:02:36,406 - Yeah. - I'm here. 63 00:02:36,448 --> 00:02:41,786 - This morning, my daughter said that 64 00:02:41,828 --> 00:02:47,375 when I'm tired, I look like a sad racoon. 65 00:02:47,417 --> 00:02:52,714 So do you think I can trade her 66 00:02:52,756 --> 00:02:55,842 for a new car? 67 00:02:55,884 --> 00:02:59,054 - A very nice new car. 68 00:02:59,095 --> 00:03:00,597 - [laughs] 69 00:03:00,638 --> 00:03:02,557 Good. 70 00:03:06,227 --> 00:03:08,146 - Thank you. 71 00:03:08,188 --> 00:03:10,565 - Where do you get your motivation? 72 00:03:12,942 --> 00:03:13,985 - Good morning. 73 00:03:14,027 --> 00:03:15,653 I have the clinical trial prospectus. 74 00:03:15,695 --> 00:03:17,280 - Thank you. 75 00:03:17,322 --> 00:03:22,535 Well, Dana, this is Dr. Wilder. 76 00:03:22,577 --> 00:03:28,750 And Dr. Wilder, this is Dana, my ASL teacher. 77 00:03:54,234 --> 00:03:56,194 - Oh, yeah. No, I got that one. 78 00:03:56,236 --> 00:03:58,571 Crystal clear. 79 00:03:58,613 --> 00:04:00,407 - * It's a brand new * 80 00:04:00,448 --> 00:04:01,908 - Please give me something good. 81 00:04:01,950 --> 00:04:04,244 - And this one's the quarterly budget template. 82 00:04:04,285 --> 00:04:05,537 - Another? How many are there? 83 00:04:05,578 --> 00:04:07,122 - It's quarterly, so four. 84 00:04:07,163 --> 00:04:08,498 - Sandra Fall, I hate forms. 85 00:04:08,540 --> 00:04:10,000 Forms never helped anyone. 86 00:04:10,041 --> 00:04:12,002 - Well, this one literally funds the hospital. 87 00:04:12,043 --> 00:04:13,586 - If I'm not looking into a patient's eyes, 88 00:04:13,628 --> 00:04:16,006 if I'm not looking into the underlying roots 89 00:04:16,047 --> 00:04:17,716 of their issues, then-- 90 00:04:17,757 --> 00:04:19,467 - Then you can do your actual job, sign these forms, 91 00:04:19,509 --> 00:04:21,261 and end this conversation. - I had a question. 92 00:04:21,302 --> 00:04:22,721 Is there a form that fires you? 93 00:04:22,762 --> 00:04:24,097 - You keep shredding it against my wishes. 94 00:04:24,139 --> 00:04:25,473 Sign. 95 00:04:27,058 --> 00:04:28,935 - The ICU needs a substitute attending? 96 00:04:28,977 --> 00:04:31,021 - Mm-hmm. Dr. Slavin broke her ankle. 97 00:04:31,062 --> 00:04:32,105 She's out today. 98 00:04:32,147 --> 00:04:34,065 * * 99 00:04:34,107 --> 00:04:38,028 - All right. So today I am not your boss's boss's boss. 100 00:04:38,069 --> 00:04:39,988 I am just simply your boss. 101 00:04:40,030 --> 00:04:41,698 So I'm here for you. 102 00:04:41,740 --> 00:04:44,826 Let's do some actual medicine. 103 00:04:44,868 --> 00:04:46,953 Who's with me? 104 00:04:46,995 --> 00:04:48,997 - You look chipper. 105 00:04:49,039 --> 00:04:50,331 - Do I? 106 00:04:50,373 --> 00:04:52,042 Well, it is never a bad day to have a good day, 107 00:04:52,083 --> 00:04:53,209 my enchanting chairwoman. 108 00:04:53,251 --> 00:04:54,836 - Charmed and unnerved. 109 00:04:54,878 --> 00:04:56,463 Look, we have a problem outside. 110 00:04:56,504 --> 00:04:58,465 - Okay. - An unhoused gentleman 111 00:04:58,506 --> 00:04:59,799 who's facing some challenges 112 00:04:59,841 --> 00:05:02,635 has created an untenable environment. 113 00:05:02,677 --> 00:05:04,346 - I don't--I don't follow. What are you saying? 114 00:05:04,387 --> 00:05:06,890 - There's a crazy homeless guy out front. 115 00:05:06,931 --> 00:05:08,683 He's scaring our patients. I need him gone. 116 00:05:08,725 --> 00:05:10,643 - Well, that was a touching and heartfelt alternate way 117 00:05:10,685 --> 00:05:11,895 of putting that. Thank you. 118 00:05:11,936 --> 00:05:13,438 - I'm suggesting you provide him 119 00:05:13,480 --> 00:05:15,690 with appropriate care and services. 120 00:05:15,732 --> 00:05:16,941 - That is far away from our entrance. 121 00:05:16,983 --> 00:05:19,152 - [sighs] Thank you, Ignatius. - You got it. 122 00:05:19,194 --> 00:05:21,738 - Do not go inside! 123 00:05:21,780 --> 00:05:24,157 Yes. Yes. 124 00:05:24,199 --> 00:05:25,158 Come out. 125 00:05:25,200 --> 00:05:28,328 Get away from them. 126 00:05:28,370 --> 00:05:30,038 Stop. Stop. 127 00:05:30,080 --> 00:05:31,289 They will kill you! 128 00:05:31,331 --> 00:05:32,832 - Hey, there. Hey. 129 00:05:32,874 --> 00:05:34,334 Got a little something here that might brighten your day. 130 00:05:34,376 --> 00:05:37,003 - Evil. Evil people. 131 00:05:37,045 --> 00:05:38,546 - Okay. Sure. Sure. 132 00:05:38,588 --> 00:05:40,090 - You're one of them. 133 00:05:40,131 --> 00:05:44,386 - Actually, I'm just a guy with some socks. 134 00:05:45,428 --> 00:05:48,014 Yeah, yeah. 135 00:05:48,973 --> 00:05:51,142 Want a pair? 136 00:05:51,184 --> 00:05:53,728 Yeah. Go ahead. Take a pair. It's cold out here. 137 00:05:54,562 --> 00:05:57,065 Yeah, you're good. Yeah. 138 00:05:57,107 --> 00:05:58,483 I got a whole bag full of socks here. 139 00:05:58,525 --> 00:06:00,318 I got sweaters. 140 00:06:00,360 --> 00:06:01,820 What you say you and I take this 141 00:06:01,861 --> 00:06:03,029 wherever you're camping out 142 00:06:03,071 --> 00:06:04,906 and we stash the whole bag there? 143 00:06:06,574 --> 00:06:08,952 - I got a place just over there. 144 00:06:10,537 --> 00:06:12,247 - Oh, over here under the scaffolding? 145 00:06:12,288 --> 00:06:13,957 Yeah. I've seen people there. 146 00:06:13,998 --> 00:06:16,042 - No. 147 00:06:16,084 --> 00:06:17,502 No. 148 00:06:17,544 --> 00:06:19,212 [soft music] 149 00:06:19,254 --> 00:06:20,380 Penthouse. 150 00:06:20,422 --> 00:06:24,426 * * 151 00:06:24,467 --> 00:06:26,052 - Penthouse? 152 00:06:26,094 --> 00:06:27,887 * * 153 00:06:27,929 --> 00:06:29,389 Right on. 154 00:06:29,431 --> 00:06:30,557 * * 155 00:06:30,598 --> 00:06:33,518 [jazzy percussive music] 156 00:06:33,560 --> 00:06:40,692 * * 157 00:08:33,096 --> 00:08:35,724 [soft music] 158 00:08:35,765 --> 00:08:37,600 - Oh, that is quite the decision. 159 00:08:37,642 --> 00:08:39,019 - Tell me about it. - Right. 160 00:08:39,060 --> 00:08:41,271 So you can either hang out with a bunch of AARP guys 161 00:08:41,312 --> 00:08:44,357 at a literal fish show, or you can hook up 162 00:08:44,399 --> 00:08:47,902 with a beautiful, available, interested woman. 163 00:08:47,944 --> 00:08:49,612 Yeah. I can see why you're torn. 164 00:08:49,654 --> 00:08:50,780 - It's not that easy, all right? 165 00:08:50,822 --> 00:08:52,532 All I've ever wanted was my family back. 166 00:08:52,574 --> 00:08:53,908 And now that I have it-- 167 00:08:53,950 --> 00:08:56,286 - Young woman found down in Morandi Park. 168 00:08:56,327 --> 00:08:57,537 Unresponsive. 169 00:08:57,579 --> 00:08:59,330 Respirations and heart rate slow. 170 00:08:59,372 --> 00:09:00,498 - Vanessa. 171 00:09:00,540 --> 00:09:02,167 Vanessa? 172 00:09:02,208 --> 00:09:04,044 [dramatic music] 173 00:09:04,085 --> 00:09:05,837 Pupils are pinpoint, nonreactive. 174 00:09:05,879 --> 00:09:07,213 - Narcotics overdose. 175 00:09:07,255 --> 00:09:08,089 - I need a second IV. 176 00:09:08,131 --> 00:09:10,300 - O-2 sats are low. - On it. 177 00:09:10,342 --> 00:09:12,218 - Saturation 88%. 178 00:09:12,260 --> 00:09:14,387 - I need an intubation tray with a seven. 179 00:09:14,429 --> 00:09:16,264 * * 180 00:09:16,306 --> 00:09:18,224 - Pushing Narcan. 181 00:09:18,266 --> 00:09:21,227 [machinery beeping] 182 00:09:21,269 --> 00:09:28,193 * * 183 00:09:30,737 --> 00:09:33,448 [no audible dialogue] 184 00:09:33,490 --> 00:09:40,622 * * 185 00:09:48,171 --> 00:09:48,338 . 186 00:09:48,380 --> 00:09:48,838 - Quick pop quiz. 187 00:09:49,714 --> 00:09:51,132 This is from a 65-year-old man 188 00:09:51,174 --> 00:09:52,676 who is hypertensive and unconscious. 189 00:09:52,717 --> 00:09:54,594 Do you shock this rhythm? 190 00:09:54,636 --> 00:09:56,554 - No. 191 00:09:56,596 --> 00:09:57,639 - Yes. 192 00:09:57,681 --> 00:09:58,890 All right. 193 00:09:58,932 --> 00:10:00,266 So you just flip through these four screens, 194 00:10:00,308 --> 00:10:02,060 and then you pull down this tab right here. 195 00:10:02,102 --> 00:10:04,479 And, oh, the M key does not work. 196 00:10:04,521 --> 00:10:07,982 So we just use a little "rn" right next to each other. 197 00:10:08,024 --> 00:10:10,235 - Someone's gotta build a better system. 198 00:10:10,276 --> 00:10:11,486 - Oh. What if that's someone is you? 199 00:10:11,528 --> 00:10:13,405 When you approach a patient about hospice, 200 00:10:13,446 --> 00:10:15,156 you don't talk about end-of-life care. 201 00:10:15,198 --> 00:10:18,034 You just talk about life care. 202 00:10:18,076 --> 00:10:19,953 This is just the next stage of it. 203 00:10:19,994 --> 00:10:21,955 [machinery beeping] 204 00:10:21,996 --> 00:10:23,456 - It's Duane Roberts. - All right. 205 00:10:23,498 --> 00:10:24,708 This is it. 206 00:10:24,749 --> 00:10:26,751 You're up. 207 00:10:26,793 --> 00:10:28,712 - [gasping] 208 00:10:28,753 --> 00:10:30,630 - BP 60 over 49. 209 00:10:30,672 --> 00:10:31,715 - Absent breath sounds on the left. 210 00:10:31,756 --> 00:10:33,008 - Left heart's straining EKG. 211 00:10:33,049 --> 00:10:35,343 - Tension pneumo. Need a left-sided chest tube. 212 00:10:35,385 --> 00:10:38,346 [dramatic music] 213 00:10:38,388 --> 00:10:40,306 * * 214 00:10:40,348 --> 00:10:41,433 - VAN runs under the rib. 215 00:10:41,474 --> 00:10:48,440 * * 216 00:10:48,481 --> 00:10:52,944 - BP rising. 217 00:10:52,986 --> 00:10:54,029 - Sats normalizing. 218 00:10:54,070 --> 00:10:55,655 - [sighs] It worked. 219 00:10:55,697 --> 00:10:57,574 - That's good work. 220 00:10:57,615 --> 00:11:01,578 Decision, coordination, execution, all excellent. 221 00:11:01,619 --> 00:11:02,912 [tense music] 222 00:11:02,954 --> 00:11:06,374 - Mika, you okay? 223 00:11:06,416 --> 00:11:11,796 * * 224 00:12:29,666 --> 00:12:31,626 - It used to be cleaner. 225 00:12:31,668 --> 00:12:32,794 - Oh, no, no. 226 00:12:32,836 --> 00:12:35,296 This is, uh--this is amazing. 227 00:12:35,338 --> 00:12:36,923 Wow. 228 00:12:38,174 --> 00:12:40,802 Look at this place. 229 00:12:40,844 --> 00:12:42,804 Look at that view. 230 00:12:42,846 --> 00:12:44,848 Oh, someone's a gamer, huh? 231 00:12:46,349 --> 00:12:47,308 - Uh, coder. 232 00:12:47,350 --> 00:12:48,935 Bitcoin. 233 00:12:48,977 --> 00:12:50,812 - Cooler. [chuckles] 234 00:12:50,854 --> 00:12:53,565 - Do you want one? 235 00:12:53,606 --> 00:12:55,525 - Yeah. Yeah. Thank you. 236 00:12:55,567 --> 00:12:56,943 I'll take one of those. 237 00:12:56,985 --> 00:12:58,945 Cheers. 238 00:12:58,987 --> 00:13:02,407 So, hey, just curious. 239 00:13:02,449 --> 00:13:04,909 Why did you start hanging out in front of New Amsterdam? 240 00:13:06,870 --> 00:13:08,204 - I'm warning people. 241 00:13:08,246 --> 00:13:09,497 - Warning people about what? 242 00:13:09,539 --> 00:13:10,957 - Bad things happen in that place. 243 00:13:10,999 --> 00:13:12,584 They're evil. They hurt people. 244 00:13:12,625 --> 00:13:17,088 They do experiments on young children. 245 00:13:17,130 --> 00:13:19,841 They use lightning, and they rip out their brains. 246 00:13:19,883 --> 00:13:21,926 They tie them down with rubber. 247 00:13:21,968 --> 00:13:23,470 And it's tight. 248 00:13:23,511 --> 00:13:25,472 No! It burns. 249 00:13:25,513 --> 00:13:26,848 And they zap. 250 00:13:26,890 --> 00:13:28,516 They zap and zap and zap. 251 00:13:28,558 --> 00:13:29,684 They... 252 00:13:29,726 --> 00:13:33,480 [uneasy music] 253 00:13:33,521 --> 00:13:35,815 I'm saving those kids. 254 00:13:35,857 --> 00:13:37,609 - Tied down with rubber? 255 00:13:37,650 --> 00:13:38,693 Lightning? 256 00:13:38,735 --> 00:13:40,528 - Don't--don't try to deny it. 257 00:13:40,570 --> 00:13:42,030 - No, no, I'm not. That--that is how they 258 00:13:42,072 --> 00:13:45,075 used to do electroshock therapy 40 years ago. 259 00:13:46,368 --> 00:13:47,535 Harlan, when you were a kid, 260 00:13:47,577 --> 00:13:49,704 were you a patient at New Amsterdam? 261 00:13:49,746 --> 00:13:52,499 - Oh...[grunts] 262 00:13:52,540 --> 00:13:59,422 * * 263 00:14:03,843 --> 00:14:06,471 - Hey, how you doing? 264 00:14:07,597 --> 00:14:10,350 - [groans] How does it freaking look? 265 00:14:10,392 --> 00:14:13,103 [groans] - It's the Narcan. 266 00:14:13,144 --> 00:14:14,813 You're in withdrawal from the heroin. 267 00:14:14,854 --> 00:14:18,108 - Well, it feels like ants are crawling out of my body. 268 00:14:18,149 --> 00:14:19,901 So--oh, Jesus. 269 00:14:19,943 --> 00:14:21,194 - All right. Okay. 270 00:14:21,236 --> 00:14:22,612 We're gonna get you through this. 271 00:14:22,654 --> 00:14:24,406 - Stop. Get off. - What? 272 00:14:24,447 --> 00:14:26,032 - Stop gloating, all right? - I'm not gloating. 273 00:14:26,074 --> 00:14:27,409 - Please just leave. - Okay, you really-- 274 00:14:27,450 --> 00:14:29,202 Ugh. Jesus. 275 00:14:32,205 --> 00:14:33,748 All right. You know what, Vanessa? 276 00:14:33,790 --> 00:14:35,083 You tried to kill yourself. 277 00:14:35,125 --> 00:14:36,334 Whether you realize it or not, 278 00:14:36,376 --> 00:14:37,502 that is what you tried to do. 279 00:14:37,544 --> 00:14:39,671 And I'm gonna be here for you, okay? 280 00:14:42,215 --> 00:14:44,175 - Yeah. Well, you know what? 281 00:14:44,217 --> 00:14:45,760 Being nice to me now is not gonna change the fact 282 00:14:45,802 --> 00:14:47,721 that Mom died hating you. 283 00:14:52,976 --> 00:14:55,437 - That's not true. 284 00:14:55,478 --> 00:14:56,896 - Yes, it is. 285 00:14:56,938 --> 00:14:58,440 Yeah, it is, actually. 286 00:14:58,481 --> 00:15:02,068 Thanks to me, she wrote you a letter a few years ago, 287 00:15:02,110 --> 00:15:03,820 an apology, you know, 288 00:15:03,862 --> 00:15:06,114 for being such a terrible mother. 289 00:15:06,156 --> 00:15:08,158 I threw it away. 290 00:15:16,833 --> 00:15:20,462 - Why would you do that? 291 00:15:20,503 --> 00:15:21,588 Answer me. 292 00:15:21,629 --> 00:15:23,131 Why would you do that? 293 00:15:23,173 --> 00:15:25,342 - Because you didn't deserve that, Lauren! 294 00:15:25,383 --> 00:15:26,509 God, she was so vulnerable 295 00:15:26,551 --> 00:15:28,470 when she came to me with that letter. 296 00:15:28,511 --> 00:15:30,305 She was, like, crying and asking me 297 00:15:30,347 --> 00:15:32,349 if I thought you'd ever forgive her. 298 00:15:32,390 --> 00:15:34,017 She thought you threw it in her face. 299 00:15:34,059 --> 00:15:35,310 So yes, Lauren. Yes. 300 00:15:35,352 --> 00:15:38,104 I'm pretty sure she died hating you. 301 00:15:38,146 --> 00:15:39,314 - You know what? 302 00:15:39,356 --> 00:15:40,315 You really are pathetic, aren't you? 303 00:15:40,357 --> 00:15:41,733 - And there she is. You see, 304 00:15:41,775 --> 00:15:42,984 this is who you really are. 305 00:15:43,026 --> 00:15:44,569 - How many times do I have to tell you? 306 00:15:44,611 --> 00:15:46,821 I'm done with it! - Selfish bitch! 307 00:15:46,863 --> 00:15:48,114 - I'm done with being there! - I can't stand 308 00:15:48,156 --> 00:15:49,657 the condescending bitch you've become. 309 00:15:49,699 --> 00:15:52,619 [thuds] - Vanessa? Vanessa? Vanessa? 310 00:15:52,660 --> 00:15:54,662 I need help in here! 311 00:15:54,704 --> 00:15:55,997 Okay, okay, okay. 312 00:15:56,039 --> 00:15:57,582 Okay, okay. Okay. 313 00:16:02,796 --> 00:16:03,171 . 314 00:16:03,213 --> 00:16:04,172 - Chest, it hurts. - What do you got? 315 00:16:05,256 --> 00:16:07,092 - Hypertensive, diaphoretic, tachy. 316 00:16:07,133 --> 00:16:08,843 Probably narcotic withdrawal. 317 00:16:08,885 --> 00:16:10,679 - My chest. - Vanessa, I know it hurts, 318 00:16:10,720 --> 00:16:12,222 but we need you to stay still, okay? 319 00:16:12,263 --> 00:16:14,224 Start an Esmolol drip. 320 00:16:14,265 --> 00:16:16,768 - TOX screen? - The usual polypharmacy. 321 00:16:16,810 --> 00:16:19,312 Oxy, meth, cocaine, marijuana, you name it. 322 00:16:19,354 --> 00:16:20,730 - Was she acting erratically? 323 00:16:20,772 --> 00:16:24,859 - She was outta control, screaming the most hateful-- 324 00:16:24,901 --> 00:16:26,194 an adrenergic storm. 325 00:16:26,236 --> 00:16:28,071 - From acute cocaine toxicity. 326 00:16:28,113 --> 00:16:29,989 Her coronary artery is spasming. 327 00:16:30,031 --> 00:16:31,574 - I didn't see it. I-- 328 00:16:31,616 --> 00:16:33,410 -We gotta get her to a cath lab now. 329 00:16:33,451 --> 00:16:34,661 - The clues were right in front of me, 330 00:16:34,703 --> 00:16:35,912 but why didn't I see it? 331 00:16:35,954 --> 00:16:37,997 - With family, we never see it. 332 00:16:38,039 --> 00:16:40,250 Let's go. 333 00:16:40,291 --> 00:16:41,751 Straight. Straight. This way. 334 00:16:41,793 --> 00:16:44,254 * * 335 00:16:46,965 --> 00:16:48,091 - Hey. 336 00:16:48,133 --> 00:16:50,093 - Hey. - You okay? 337 00:16:50,135 --> 00:16:52,262 - Uh, yeah, it was just allergies. 338 00:16:52,303 --> 00:16:56,224 - It didn't look like allergies. 339 00:16:56,266 --> 00:16:57,767 Looked like a panic attack. 340 00:16:57,809 --> 00:16:59,853 - Oh, no. Not at all. 341 00:16:59,894 --> 00:17:01,896 I mean, I've been here a month, and Elliot's code 342 00:17:01,938 --> 00:17:03,398 isn't one of the top ten most intense things 343 00:17:03,440 --> 00:17:05,066 that have happened all week. 344 00:17:05,108 --> 00:17:06,735 - Who's Elliot? 345 00:17:06,776 --> 00:17:08,653 - The--the patient. The code we just ran. 346 00:17:10,071 --> 00:17:12,741 - No, Mika. That was Duane. 347 00:17:13,992 --> 00:17:15,952 Who's Elliot? 348 00:17:15,994 --> 00:17:17,495 - Um... 349 00:17:21,166 --> 00:17:24,127 My first patient here. 350 00:17:24,169 --> 00:17:25,962 You never forget your first, right? 351 00:17:26,004 --> 00:17:27,380 - No. 352 00:17:27,422 --> 00:17:29,424 Especially if they die. 353 00:17:34,346 --> 00:17:36,222 - How did you know that? 354 00:17:36,264 --> 00:17:39,351 - 'Cause I've stood where you're standing. 355 00:17:39,392 --> 00:17:42,187 Patients die, Mika, no matter what you do, 356 00:17:42,228 --> 00:17:43,521 no matter how good you are, 357 00:17:43,563 --> 00:17:46,191 and I've been watching you on the floor. 358 00:17:46,232 --> 00:17:48,985 You're a really good doctor. 359 00:17:49,027 --> 00:17:52,864 - No. [sighs] 360 00:17:52,906 --> 00:17:54,491 I'm an excellent doctor. 361 00:17:54,532 --> 00:17:56,785 Elliot had a triple A that ruptured. 362 00:17:56,826 --> 00:17:58,703 That's one of the hardest procedures we do, 363 00:17:58,745 --> 00:18:01,331 and I ran that code flawlessly. 364 00:18:07,379 --> 00:18:09,839 And then I went home for the night, 365 00:18:09,881 --> 00:18:11,841 and he died 366 00:18:11,883 --> 00:18:14,511 while I was watching a reality cooking show 367 00:18:14,552 --> 00:18:16,680 and eating a takeaway salad. 368 00:18:18,973 --> 00:18:21,643 I could have saved him. 369 00:18:21,685 --> 00:18:24,270 He was my patient, and I left him to die. 370 00:18:29,818 --> 00:18:34,322 - They experimented on me with lightning. 371 00:18:36,074 --> 00:18:37,200 It hurt. 372 00:18:37,242 --> 00:18:39,828 - Yeah, I bet. 373 00:18:39,869 --> 00:18:41,538 Yeah, a lot of hospitals back then used 374 00:18:41,579 --> 00:18:44,541 a very crude version of electroshock, 375 00:18:44,582 --> 00:18:47,002 and they way overmedicated. 376 00:18:47,043 --> 00:18:48,586 Just so many pills. 377 00:18:48,628 --> 00:18:50,046 You could barely even move. 378 00:18:50,088 --> 00:18:51,423 - [exhales shakily] 379 00:18:54,592 --> 00:18:56,761 It's like being in a cage. 380 00:18:58,596 --> 00:19:00,765 A cage you can't see. 381 00:19:05,937 --> 00:19:07,939 - You know, Harlan, 382 00:19:07,981 --> 00:19:10,066 we don't do that anymore. 383 00:19:10,108 --> 00:19:12,277 - [scoffs] - No, we don't. 384 00:19:12,318 --> 00:19:13,737 And I have helped schizophrenics 385 00:19:13,778 --> 00:19:16,990 without pills, without shocks. 386 00:19:17,032 --> 00:19:18,658 None of it. 387 00:19:18,700 --> 00:19:19,492 - Really? 388 00:19:19,534 --> 00:19:21,911 - Yeah, really. 389 00:19:21,953 --> 00:19:24,706 If you come with me to my office today, 390 00:19:24,748 --> 00:19:26,833 I will get you back on your feet. 391 00:19:26,875 --> 00:19:30,128 [uneasy music] 392 00:19:30,170 --> 00:19:32,255 - [grunts] 393 00:19:32,297 --> 00:19:33,298 It doesn't believe you. 394 00:19:33,340 --> 00:19:34,591 - The voice? 395 00:19:34,632 --> 00:19:36,092 - Mm... - Yeah. That's okay. 396 00:19:36,134 --> 00:19:37,510 That's okay. That's okay. 397 00:19:37,552 --> 00:19:40,805 But all you have to do is let me try, 398 00:19:40,847 --> 00:19:42,891 and you will see that I can help you. 399 00:19:42,932 --> 00:19:44,267 I mean, Harlan, look at what you've accomplished. 400 00:19:44,309 --> 00:19:45,643 Look at this. 401 00:19:45,685 --> 00:19:47,520 You were doing really well for a very long time. 402 00:19:47,562 --> 00:19:48,938 - Stop talking. 403 00:19:48,980 --> 00:19:50,940 - Look, going to the hospital, that's new, right? 404 00:19:50,982 --> 00:19:52,817 - Shut up! 405 00:19:52,859 --> 00:19:54,319 * * 406 00:19:54,361 --> 00:19:55,570 - Did something happen recently? 407 00:19:55,612 --> 00:19:56,571 Something-- - Get out. 408 00:19:56,613 --> 00:19:58,448 Get outta here now! 409 00:19:58,490 --> 00:20:00,241 Get outta here right now. - Okay. 410 00:20:00,283 --> 00:20:01,201 - No hospitals! 411 00:20:01,242 --> 00:20:02,452 No doctors! 412 00:20:02,494 --> 00:20:03,661 No, no, no! 413 00:20:03,703 --> 00:20:04,496 No! 414 00:20:04,537 --> 00:20:11,670 * * 415 00:22:53,790 --> 00:22:53,998 . 416 00:22:54,040 --> 00:22:54,499 [somber music] 417 00:22:57,002 --> 00:23:03,925 * * 418 00:23:45,800 --> 00:23:49,679 - Morandi Park. 419 00:23:49,721 --> 00:23:51,264 - I don't-- 420 00:23:51,306 --> 00:23:54,351 - Vanessa lives on the Upper West Side. 421 00:23:54,392 --> 00:23:57,979 So do all of her friends. 422 00:23:58,021 --> 00:24:02,275 Yet she OD'd in Morandi Park... 423 00:24:02,317 --> 00:24:05,195 directly across the street from this hospital. 424 00:24:05,236 --> 00:24:10,617 * * 425 00:24:10,658 --> 00:24:13,203 She knew exactly where they'd bring her. 426 00:24:13,244 --> 00:24:17,040 * * 427 00:24:17,082 --> 00:24:19,709 She knew that I'd be the one to see her like this. 428 00:24:19,751 --> 00:24:23,672 * * 429 00:24:23,713 --> 00:24:25,632 She chose this. 430 00:24:25,674 --> 00:24:29,302 * * 431 00:24:29,344 --> 00:24:31,513 That's how much she hates me. 432 00:24:31,554 --> 00:24:32,764 - Well, she was coked out of her mind. 433 00:24:32,806 --> 00:24:35,392 - It wasn't the coke. 434 00:24:35,433 --> 00:24:37,644 She meant what she said, every last word of it. 435 00:24:37,686 --> 00:24:39,396 She meant it. 436 00:24:39,437 --> 00:24:41,898 * * 437 00:24:41,940 --> 00:24:44,275 And why shouldn't she hate me? 438 00:24:44,317 --> 00:24:47,070 * * 439 00:24:47,112 --> 00:24:48,154 I left her. 440 00:24:48,196 --> 00:24:49,906 - Lauren... 441 00:24:52,659 --> 00:24:54,869 - You wanna know the worst part? 442 00:24:56,579 --> 00:25:00,208 If she never woke up, 443 00:25:00,250 --> 00:25:03,253 I think a part of me would be relieved. 444 00:25:03,294 --> 00:25:09,426 * * 445 00:25:09,467 --> 00:25:12,429 Why didn't I help her? 446 00:25:12,470 --> 00:25:14,597 [sobbing] 447 00:25:14,639 --> 00:25:18,852 - You know why better than anyone. 448 00:25:18,893 --> 00:25:20,645 An addict has to want help. 449 00:25:20,687 --> 00:25:22,522 - I have to try. I have to try. 450 00:25:22,564 --> 00:25:24,816 I can't--I can't just stand by and do nothing. 451 00:25:24,858 --> 00:25:26,568 - No, you-- - No, Floyd, I'm not just gonna 452 00:25:26,609 --> 00:25:29,320 walk away and just watch her die. 453 00:25:31,281 --> 00:25:33,450 This time I'm staying. 454 00:25:33,491 --> 00:25:38,997 * * 455 00:25:42,792 --> 00:25:43,960 - Get out. 456 00:25:44,002 --> 00:25:45,128 Don't you spy on me. - I'm not. 457 00:25:45,170 --> 00:25:46,796 - Don't you spy. - 48 floors. 458 00:25:46,838 --> 00:25:48,048 It just--it takes a minute. 459 00:25:48,089 --> 00:25:51,217 - Damn thing. Hurry up. Hurry up. 460 00:25:51,259 --> 00:25:53,762 [soft music] 461 00:25:53,803 --> 00:25:56,473 - Hey, the protein shakes, you like 'em? 462 00:25:56,514 --> 00:25:57,640 They good? 463 00:25:57,682 --> 00:25:59,351 * * 464 00:25:59,392 --> 00:26:00,477 - Yeah. 465 00:26:00,518 --> 00:26:02,145 * * 466 00:26:02,187 --> 00:26:03,355 - Did you start drinking them 467 00:26:03,396 --> 00:26:04,939 right before you started warning people 468 00:26:04,981 --> 00:26:06,191 out in front of the hospital? 469 00:26:06,232 --> 00:26:08,234 * * 470 00:26:08,276 --> 00:26:09,486 - What? 471 00:26:09,527 --> 00:26:11,321 * * 472 00:26:15,909 --> 00:26:19,371 - The M key doesn't work. Remember? 473 00:26:19,412 --> 00:26:21,456 Gotta just use "rn." 474 00:26:21,498 --> 00:26:22,749 - Thanks. 475 00:26:24,668 --> 00:26:26,753 - Mika, you left your patient 'cause your shift was over. 476 00:26:26,795 --> 00:26:28,421 - [sighs] 477 00:26:28,463 --> 00:26:30,173 Can we not talk about this? 478 00:26:30,215 --> 00:26:32,884 - Well, I can't let you see patients until we do. 479 00:26:36,304 --> 00:26:37,764 - Fine. 480 00:26:40,892 --> 00:26:43,395 I could have stayed. 481 00:26:43,436 --> 00:26:45,355 I chose to leave. 482 00:26:45,397 --> 00:26:49,025 - When you're not on call, do you ever sleep here? 483 00:26:49,067 --> 00:26:50,110 - We all grab naps sometimes. 484 00:26:50,151 --> 00:26:52,654 - That's not what I meant. 485 00:26:52,696 --> 00:26:53,905 How often do you go home? 486 00:26:53,947 --> 00:26:56,741 - It depends. 487 00:26:56,783 --> 00:26:59,119 - Mika, I'm just asking you, 488 00:26:59,160 --> 00:27:00,954 when was the last time that you got 489 00:27:00,995 --> 00:27:04,749 a full night's sleep in your own bed? 490 00:27:09,879 --> 00:27:13,341 - [sighs] 491 00:27:13,383 --> 00:27:15,468 The night Elliot died. 492 00:27:15,510 --> 00:27:18,888 [solemn music] 493 00:27:18,930 --> 00:27:21,266 - That was over a month ago. 494 00:27:21,307 --> 00:27:22,600 * * 495 00:27:22,642 --> 00:27:25,478 Mika, you have to go home. 496 00:27:25,520 --> 00:27:27,605 It's not a request. 497 00:27:27,647 --> 00:27:30,066 - I don't think you're allowed to dictate where I sleep, 498 00:27:30,108 --> 00:27:32,068 and my performance isn't a problem. 499 00:27:32,110 --> 00:27:35,113 So thank you for your concern, truly. 500 00:27:35,155 --> 00:27:38,283 But I'm not going anywhere. 501 00:27:38,324 --> 00:27:45,248 * * 502 00:27:56,051 --> 00:27:57,802 - You want to take the job. 503 00:27:58,970 --> 00:28:00,096 - I have to. 504 00:28:00,138 --> 00:28:01,598 It's too important. 505 00:28:01,639 --> 00:28:04,142 I won't leave you in the lurch. 506 00:28:04,184 --> 00:28:05,560 I'll help with the transition. 507 00:28:05,602 --> 00:28:08,063 I will handle the interviews for my replacement. 508 00:28:09,064 --> 00:28:12,150 - Can we talk alone? 509 00:28:16,654 --> 00:28:18,198 - I'll be right outside. 510 00:30:09,768 --> 00:30:12,729 [soft music] 511 00:30:12,771 --> 00:30:18,401 * * 512 00:30:22,822 --> 00:30:23,198 . 513 00:30:23,239 --> 00:30:24,032 - Hey, hey. I have good news. 514 00:30:25,408 --> 00:30:27,327 - You dealt with the homeless-- unhoused gentleman? 515 00:30:27,369 --> 00:30:28,828 - Yes. His name is Harlan, 516 00:30:28,870 --> 00:30:30,580 and I did help him indeed. 517 00:30:30,622 --> 00:30:33,792 It turns out the problem was protein shakes. 518 00:30:33,833 --> 00:30:36,086 - It didn't look like the problem was protein shakes. 519 00:30:36,127 --> 00:30:37,128 - Well, upon further inspection, 520 00:30:37,170 --> 00:30:38,421 they were all he was eating, 521 00:30:38,463 --> 00:30:41,091 which led to a niacin deficiency, AKA pellagra, 522 00:30:41,132 --> 00:30:42,967 which I then treated with a multivitamin. 523 00:30:43,009 --> 00:30:44,469 - So he wasn't schizophrenic, 524 00:30:44,511 --> 00:30:46,137 he just needed Flintstone pills? 525 00:30:46,179 --> 00:30:47,722 - He is still schizophrenic, 526 00:30:47,764 --> 00:30:50,183 just minus the aggressive behavior, the irritability, 527 00:30:50,225 --> 00:30:51,351 and the angry voices in his head. 528 00:30:51,393 --> 00:30:52,894 That was all the pellagra. 529 00:30:52,936 --> 00:30:55,397 - As long as sanity has prevailed at our front door, 530 00:30:55,438 --> 00:30:56,981 I'm happy. - Yeah. 531 00:30:57,023 --> 00:30:58,441 Yeah. Well, you know, about that. 532 00:30:58,483 --> 00:31:00,235 - Do you get your vitamins? 533 00:31:00,276 --> 00:31:01,861 There's 13 essential ones. 534 00:31:01,903 --> 00:31:03,988 They're good for your bones, your immune system. 535 00:31:04,030 --> 00:31:05,198 This will save your life. 536 00:31:05,240 --> 00:31:07,158 - I told you to clear the front door. 537 00:31:07,200 --> 00:31:09,119 - No. No, you told me to help. 538 00:31:09,160 --> 00:31:10,829 - Hey, Iggy! - And I did. 539 00:31:10,870 --> 00:31:12,288 - Hey! - Hey, doing great. 540 00:31:12,330 --> 00:31:14,207 - Excuse me. Do you get your vitamins? 541 00:31:14,249 --> 00:31:15,959 Vitamins are really good for you. 542 00:31:16,001 --> 00:31:18,044 - [sighs] 543 00:31:22,757 --> 00:31:23,800 - You're still here. 544 00:31:25,051 --> 00:31:26,136 - Dr. Goodwin. 545 00:31:26,177 --> 00:31:27,554 - You gotta go. 546 00:31:29,014 --> 00:31:31,057 Stay, and you're a bad doctor. 547 00:31:33,351 --> 00:31:35,228 - Are you asking me to care less? 548 00:31:35,270 --> 00:31:38,106 - No. If anything, I'm asking you to care more. 549 00:31:39,733 --> 00:31:42,360 The hardest part of caring is the part you're not doing. 550 00:31:42,402 --> 00:31:45,196 Letting go. - Giving up is not caring. 551 00:31:46,906 --> 00:31:49,367 - Elliot's gone. 552 00:31:49,409 --> 00:31:51,202 If you worked 1,000 hours straight, 553 00:31:51,244 --> 00:31:52,579 it wouldn't bring him back. 554 00:31:52,620 --> 00:31:54,122 You can't undo it. - Stop. 555 00:31:54,164 --> 00:31:57,292 - Sometimes people go, 556 00:31:57,334 --> 00:31:58,918 and wanting them to stay, 557 00:31:58,960 --> 00:32:01,004 fighting, clinging, 558 00:32:01,046 --> 00:32:03,256 that's for you. 559 00:32:03,298 --> 00:32:04,924 [soft music] 560 00:32:04,966 --> 00:32:06,301 And you going home, 561 00:32:06,343 --> 00:32:08,803 that's for the person who needs you next. 562 00:32:08,845 --> 00:32:15,769 * * 563 00:32:17,937 --> 00:32:19,397 Can I walk you out? 564 00:32:19,439 --> 00:32:20,899 - [inhales shakily] 565 00:32:20,940 --> 00:32:22,025 Yeah. 566 00:32:22,067 --> 00:32:25,236 * * 567 00:32:31,951 --> 00:32:33,203 - Is she-- 568 00:32:33,244 --> 00:32:35,747 - Vanessa's awake, 569 00:32:35,789 --> 00:32:37,457 and she's asking for you. 570 00:32:37,499 --> 00:32:39,209 - [sighs] 571 00:32:40,835 --> 00:32:42,712 - You don't have to go. 572 00:32:42,754 --> 00:32:45,340 Don't keep doing this to yourself. 573 00:32:46,800 --> 00:32:49,302 - She's family. 574 00:32:49,344 --> 00:32:51,429 You don't turn your back on that. 575 00:32:51,471 --> 00:32:54,474 - Well, I thought that too. 576 00:32:54,516 --> 00:32:58,061 With my dad when I was trying to get into his life, 577 00:32:58,103 --> 00:33:01,439 I made so many excuses for him. 578 00:33:01,481 --> 00:33:05,735 I said I wasn't gonna be the one who turned away, 579 00:33:05,777 --> 00:33:08,321 but my friend told me that was crap. 580 00:33:10,073 --> 00:33:11,658 - It's not the same. 581 00:33:11,700 --> 00:33:17,205 - You said that change won't happen unless you demand it. 582 00:33:18,456 --> 00:33:22,210 - But what if it doesn't? 583 00:33:22,252 --> 00:33:25,714 What if she needs me, and I'm not there? 584 00:33:25,755 --> 00:33:27,966 [somber music] 585 00:33:28,008 --> 00:33:29,968 What if she dies? 586 00:33:30,010 --> 00:33:32,220 * * 587 00:33:32,262 --> 00:33:34,973 I don't know how to help her. 588 00:33:35,015 --> 00:33:38,309 * * 589 00:33:38,351 --> 00:33:40,311 [crying] I don't know how-- 590 00:33:40,353 --> 00:33:41,604 I don't know how to help her. 591 00:33:41,646 --> 00:33:43,898 - Yes, you do. Yes, you do. 592 00:33:43,940 --> 00:33:47,068 You've already done it once when you were 18. 593 00:33:47,110 --> 00:33:48,737 - No. 594 00:33:48,778 --> 00:33:50,655 * * 595 00:33:50,697 --> 00:33:52,032 That was selfish. 596 00:33:52,073 --> 00:33:53,658 You know, me leaving her, 597 00:33:53,700 --> 00:33:55,827 that put that needle in her arm. 598 00:33:55,869 --> 00:33:57,412 - Listen. 599 00:33:57,454 --> 00:34:00,832 If you hadn't left, you'd be in a bed next to her. 600 00:34:00,874 --> 00:34:02,709 All right? She has someone alive 601 00:34:02,751 --> 00:34:07,839 to help her because you left, right? 602 00:34:07,881 --> 00:34:10,008 * * 603 00:34:10,050 --> 00:34:14,346 You spent most of your life wishing you can change things. 604 00:34:14,387 --> 00:34:16,139 But you know what? 605 00:34:16,181 --> 00:34:18,266 * * 606 00:34:18,308 --> 00:34:20,769 It wasn't the worst thing you ever did. 607 00:34:20,810 --> 00:34:23,063 It was the best. 608 00:34:23,104 --> 00:34:27,025 And I think Vanessa needs you to do it again. 609 00:34:27,067 --> 00:34:34,032 * * 610 00:34:34,074 --> 00:34:36,951 [machines beeping] 611 00:34:47,253 --> 00:34:49,881 - She's not coming? 612 00:34:49,923 --> 00:34:51,007 - No. 613 00:34:53,176 --> 00:34:54,969 But she wanted me to give you this. 614 00:34:58,682 --> 00:35:00,725 That's where she'll be. 615 00:35:11,069 --> 00:35:13,029 - Hey, Pops. Give me a minute to change, 616 00:35:13,071 --> 00:35:16,282 and we can hit that tri-- 617 00:35:17,826 --> 00:35:19,411 What's happening? 618 00:35:19,452 --> 00:35:21,538 - I'm moving out. 619 00:35:23,289 --> 00:35:25,208 - Okay. If you're... 620 00:35:25,250 --> 00:35:26,459 feeling anxious about something, 621 00:35:26,501 --> 00:35:28,670 we can work through it. - Son, I'm good. 622 00:35:30,130 --> 00:35:31,297 Have a seat. 623 00:35:32,298 --> 00:35:35,385 [siren wailing in distance] 624 00:35:38,680 --> 00:35:41,433 This may be hard for you to hear, 625 00:35:41,474 --> 00:35:43,184 but I read all your texts. 626 00:35:43,226 --> 00:35:44,602 - Pops! - Easy. 627 00:35:44,644 --> 00:35:46,438 It was an accident. 628 00:35:46,479 --> 00:35:48,148 I was checking out vendors for the expo. 629 00:35:48,189 --> 00:35:50,275 And when I closed the browser, 630 00:35:50,316 --> 00:35:53,278 your message app was all over the screen. 631 00:35:53,319 --> 00:35:55,864 The thread with this Gabrielle girl. 632 00:35:56,531 --> 00:35:58,450 I tried not to look, but those pictures-- 633 00:35:58,491 --> 00:35:59,534 - Oh, my God. 634 00:35:59,576 --> 00:36:01,286 - Calm down. I didn't linger, 635 00:36:01,327 --> 00:36:02,787 but I got enough to know 636 00:36:02,829 --> 00:36:05,373 that you are about to make the wrong call. 637 00:36:05,415 --> 00:36:07,042 - Oh, no, no, no, no. 638 00:36:07,083 --> 00:36:11,254 Pops, look, you are not in the way. 639 00:36:11,296 --> 00:36:13,965 This isn't pity. 640 00:36:14,007 --> 00:36:15,967 I want to pick you. 641 00:36:16,009 --> 00:36:17,385 - I don't know if I got the right 642 00:36:17,427 --> 00:36:21,973 to give you fatherly advice, but if I did, 643 00:36:22,015 --> 00:36:24,017 I'd say the most important thing I've learned 644 00:36:24,059 --> 00:36:26,811 is you go for the girl. 645 00:36:34,069 --> 00:36:35,862 - No, Pops. Pops, wait. 646 00:36:35,904 --> 00:36:37,280 Just... 647 00:36:37,322 --> 00:36:40,283 [soft music] 648 00:36:40,325 --> 00:36:42,577 * * 649 00:36:42,619 --> 00:36:46,873 I'm afraid I won't see you again. 650 00:36:46,915 --> 00:36:52,921 - Son, the first time I left, that was selfish. 651 00:36:52,962 --> 00:36:57,175 This time, I'm doing it for you. 652 00:36:57,217 --> 00:37:03,890 * * 653 00:37:03,932 --> 00:37:06,184 - Hello. 654 00:37:06,226 --> 00:37:08,269 So is anybody in the mood 655 00:37:08,311 --> 00:37:11,856 for a sweeping romantic gesture? 656 00:37:11,898 --> 00:37:16,361 This Cab is both robust and impertinent, 657 00:37:16,403 --> 00:37:18,029 much like myself. 658 00:37:18,071 --> 00:37:19,781 Iggy in a bottle. 659 00:37:23,702 --> 00:37:25,245 - [chuckles quietly] - Hey. 660 00:37:25,286 --> 00:37:26,746 Hey. - Hey. 661 00:37:26,788 --> 00:37:28,623 - So I know last night was a lot, 662 00:37:28,665 --> 00:37:32,085 um, but it was wonderful. 663 00:37:32,127 --> 00:37:34,879 Maybe things haven't changed that much. 664 00:37:34,921 --> 00:37:37,841 - Yeah, our good parts are still good. 665 00:37:39,467 --> 00:37:42,262 But what's it say about the bad parts? 666 00:37:42,303 --> 00:37:44,681 - I don't know. 667 00:37:44,723 --> 00:37:47,392 You know, we'll find out. 668 00:37:47,434 --> 00:37:49,561 Maybe--maybe they're better. 669 00:37:51,104 --> 00:37:53,523 - Maybe's not an answer. 670 00:37:54,107 --> 00:37:58,069 We can't just blindly hope that our problems 671 00:37:58,111 --> 00:37:59,654 have magically solved themselves. 672 00:37:59,696 --> 00:38:00,989 - I don't think that, Martin. 673 00:38:01,031 --> 00:38:03,783 I'm not--I'm not waiting 674 00:38:03,825 --> 00:38:05,410 for them to magically solve themselves. 675 00:38:05,452 --> 00:38:07,871 I'm--I'm working at changing. 676 00:38:07,912 --> 00:38:09,664 I have changed. You've seen it. 677 00:38:09,706 --> 00:38:11,332 - Mm-hmm. - And I'm not just talking 678 00:38:11,374 --> 00:38:12,584 about the physical, the outside. 679 00:38:12,625 --> 00:38:13,585 You know, I'm talking about inside. 680 00:38:13,626 --> 00:38:15,086 I feel different. 681 00:38:15,128 --> 00:38:16,421 I'm different. 682 00:38:16,463 --> 00:38:19,466 - Iggy, so am I. 683 00:38:25,096 --> 00:38:27,349 [solemn music] 684 00:38:27,390 --> 00:38:29,059 - Martin, I love you. 685 00:38:29,100 --> 00:38:30,435 * * 686 00:38:30,477 --> 00:38:32,687 I'm in love with you. 687 00:38:32,729 --> 00:38:33,813 * * 688 00:38:33,855 --> 00:38:39,277 - I love you so much... 689 00:38:39,319 --> 00:38:41,071 * * 690 00:38:41,112 --> 00:38:43,948 But we're not those people anymore. 691 00:38:43,990 --> 00:38:50,497 * * 692 00:38:50,538 --> 00:38:54,876 [sighs] 693 00:38:54,918 --> 00:38:57,212 It's time to finalize the divorce. 694 00:38:57,253 --> 00:39:04,177 * * 695 00:40:06,990 --> 00:40:10,326 - * They say it's a matter of time * 696 00:40:10,368 --> 00:40:13,705 * A thousand days and the sun won't shine * 697 00:40:13,747 --> 00:40:18,460 * Before I come back to you * 698 00:40:18,501 --> 00:40:20,587 * And I'm happy * 699 00:40:20,628 --> 00:40:23,590 * Nothing's going to stop me * 700 00:40:23,631 --> 00:40:26,384 * I'm making my way home * 701 00:40:26,426 --> 00:40:29,596 * I'm making my way * 702 00:40:31,723 --> 00:40:34,768 * For your love, I will go far * 703 00:40:34,809 --> 00:40:37,729 * I wanna be wherever you are * 704 00:40:37,771 --> 00:40:43,568 * I know I'm coming back for you * 705 00:40:43,610 --> 00:40:45,236 * I'm happy * 706 00:40:45,278 --> 00:40:47,906 * Nothing's going to stop me * 707 00:40:47,947 --> 00:40:50,992 * I'm making my way home * 708 00:40:51,034 --> 00:40:54,412 * I'm making my way * 709 00:40:54,454 --> 00:40:55,580 * * 710 00:40:55,622 --> 00:40:57,374 * I go solo * 711 00:40:57,415 --> 00:41:00,502 * Oh, I go solo * 712 00:41:00,543 --> 00:41:03,588 * I'm making my way home * 713 00:41:03,630 --> 00:41:06,257 * I'm making my way * 714 00:41:06,299 --> 00:41:07,842 * * 715 00:41:23,817 --> 00:41:28,113 [indistinct TV chatter] 716 00:41:28,154 --> 00:41:30,990 - Dr. Helen in her popular television program. 717 00:41:31,032 --> 00:41:32,617 She stepped out of the limelight 718 00:41:32,659 --> 00:41:36,454 to pursue oncology research and to see patients full time. 719 00:41:36,496 --> 00:41:39,457 Dr. Sharpe, tell us about your latest research. 720 00:41:39,499 --> 00:41:41,459 - It also helps reduce pain. 721 00:41:41,501 --> 00:41:43,795 It decreases... [speaks indistinctly] 722 00:41:43,837 --> 00:41:45,922 It boosts the immune system. 723 00:41:45,964 --> 00:41:48,341 And the results are truly astounding. 724 00:41:48,383 --> 00:41:49,759 It's something we've been practicing 725 00:41:49,801 --> 00:41:51,136 for many years now. 726 00:41:51,177 --> 00:41:53,138 - Dr. Helen Sharpe is here in New York City 727 00:41:53,179 --> 00:41:55,932 representing the NHS's fight against cancer. 728 00:41:55,974 --> 00:41:57,809 - * I'll make my way * 729 00:41:59,394 --> 00:42:02,355 [soft music] 730 00:42:02,397 --> 00:42:09,362 * *